
Republished by Liquid Silver Books, March 31st...
"...As I’ve often said, my life, like any other, has been a cautionary tale of wasted chances, broken dreams, and stale promises, but I’ve also been blessed with knowing where I fit in The Plan. We come into the world alone and leave the same way. But if we’re very lucky, we have the chance to share ourselves, all of ourselves, in between with those we love..." -- Charity Donovan
I know you'll think I'm crazy or crazier, but of all the changes to my physical body, the ones that meant the most were my hair and teeth … and of course not having to wear reading glasses any more. I must have spent five minutes reading the small print on the labels of every product on the bathroom shelves and on the Newsweek magazine lying on the counter.
I inspected the perky body a few times in the mirror. It seemed apart from me, more a memory than an old friend did. Because, despite the beauty of youth, I had come to terms with aging and mortality—two conditions that no longer applied to me.
I tucked the towel around my torso and shook out my hair, leaving it wet. No way was I going to blow-dry a single strand. I had makeup available and enjoyed not using any.
As I finished combing out my hair, a determined knocking sounded at the door. I opened it, catching Gavin in mid-knock, his hand poised to strike again. He looked me up and down. I hadn't realized before how much I wanted his approval, but now it seemed important.
When he kept staring, his hand still held in mid-air, I turned around slowly. "So what do you think?" I took another glance down my new, old body or old, new body, something like that. When he remained silent, I looked up into his face. The tingling along my spine the intense expression in his eyes inspired made me realize that modeling first thing in the morning in a towel might not be smart.
He tilted up my chin with the fingers of his knocking hand, turning my face from side to side, peering deeply, and searching for something. Then he smiled. "Still in there." It wasn't a question.
That annoying blushes again. I looked away and strode up to him to enter the room and search for clothes. "Of course I'm still in here. Where else would I be?"
I had nearly made it past him when Gavin grabbed my arm and tugged me back in front of him. "You know, I don't think I really got a good look at the new you."
He didn't look at my body, though, but inspected my face, seeming fascinated with exploring every part of it. When he'd satisfied himself, he looked into my eyes and smiled. I couldn't help but smile, too. Lowering his head, he lightly kissed me.
I forgot how little I had on and put my arms around his neck, pressing my full body length against him. As he wholeheartedly wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me firmly against him, he chuckled against my lips, a deep, satisfied, male chuckle.
The towel around me slid down, aided by Gavin's roving hands. Only our bodies pressed together kept the towel from falling completely. I pulled back, sliding my hands down his sides, to look at him.
A burning intensity had replaced his playful smile. His gaze meshed with mine. Slowly and deliberately, he pulled the towel from between us, held it out straight, and dropped it to the floor.
When his gaze raked over my body, my nipples tightened, and my belly clenched. He smiled, but the smile, ravenous and carnal, did nothing to relieve the amatory tension running along my nerves and interfering with my breathing.
He cupped my face and pulled me to him. When he slanted his mouth over mine, not knowing exactly what to do with my hands, I held his waist loosely.
With an arm around my waist, he clasped me tightly against him, running his fingers through my damp hair and cupping the back of my head. Warm and inviting, like coming home, his lips tasted mine, making me feel wanted and desired. His hand fisted in my hair, the one splayed against my back holding me secure, keeping me positioned against him, so he could continue to explore my mouth and rub all my sensitive spots and his.
He tumbled us back onto the bed, me on top, keeping us clamped firmly together. I lifted my upper body, my weight supported by my hands against the bed on either side of him. He released my lips but kept his arms around me, his hands fastened securely in my hair and around my middle. While I stared into his eyes, he slid his hand from my waist and down my back and thighs.
The gleam in the blue forever of his eyes changed, flared into that look, the look men get when they have no intention of going back, when releasing you will come only after they finish with you … or at death. It had been years since I'd seen that look and even longer since it had flared from me. I didn't want this, and I couldn't live without it. This was the point of no return—on one side sanity, autonomy, and on the other … paradise.
An insistent knock broke the spell. I glanced over my shoulder at the door, as though I wasn't quite sure what it was.
Gavin's response was more colorful and succinct. "Fuck!"
"...As I’ve often said, my life, like any other, has been a cautionary tale of wasted chances, broken dreams, and stale promises, but I’ve also been blessed with knowing where I fit in The Plan. We come into the world alone and leave the same way. But if we’re very lucky, we have the chance to share ourselves, all of ourselves, in between with those we love..." -- Charity Donovan
I know you'll think I'm crazy or crazier, but of all the changes to my physical body, the ones that meant the most were my hair and teeth … and of course not having to wear reading glasses any more. I must have spent five minutes reading the small print on the labels of every product on the bathroom shelves and on the Newsweek magazine lying on the counter.
I inspected the perky body a few times in the mirror. It seemed apart from me, more a memory than an old friend did. Because, despite the beauty of youth, I had come to terms with aging and mortality—two conditions that no longer applied to me.
I tucked the towel around my torso and shook out my hair, leaving it wet. No way was I going to blow-dry a single strand. I had makeup available and enjoyed not using any.
As I finished combing out my hair, a determined knocking sounded at the door. I opened it, catching Gavin in mid-knock, his hand poised to strike again. He looked me up and down. I hadn't realized before how much I wanted his approval, but now it seemed important.
When he kept staring, his hand still held in mid-air, I turned around slowly. "So what do you think?" I took another glance down my new, old body or old, new body, something like that. When he remained silent, I looked up into his face. The tingling along my spine the intense expression in his eyes inspired made me realize that modeling first thing in the morning in a towel might not be smart.
He tilted up my chin with the fingers of his knocking hand, turning my face from side to side, peering deeply, and searching for something. Then he smiled. "Still in there." It wasn't a question.
That annoying blushes again. I looked away and strode up to him to enter the room and search for clothes. "Of course I'm still in here. Where else would I be?"
I had nearly made it past him when Gavin grabbed my arm and tugged me back in front of him. "You know, I don't think I really got a good look at the new you."
He didn't look at my body, though, but inspected my face, seeming fascinated with exploring every part of it. When he'd satisfied himself, he looked into my eyes and smiled. I couldn't help but smile, too. Lowering his head, he lightly kissed me.
I forgot how little I had on and put my arms around his neck, pressing my full body length against him. As he wholeheartedly wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me firmly against him, he chuckled against my lips, a deep, satisfied, male chuckle.
The towel around me slid down, aided by Gavin's roving hands. Only our bodies pressed together kept the towel from falling completely. I pulled back, sliding my hands down his sides, to look at him.
A burning intensity had replaced his playful smile. His gaze meshed with mine. Slowly and deliberately, he pulled the towel from between us, held it out straight, and dropped it to the floor.
When his gaze raked over my body, my nipples tightened, and my belly clenched. He smiled, but the smile, ravenous and carnal, did nothing to relieve the amatory tension running along my nerves and interfering with my breathing.
He cupped my face and pulled me to him. When he slanted his mouth over mine, not knowing exactly what to do with my hands, I held his waist loosely.
With an arm around my waist, he clasped me tightly against him, running his fingers through my damp hair and cupping the back of my head. Warm and inviting, like coming home, his lips tasted mine, making me feel wanted and desired. His hand fisted in my hair, the one splayed against my back holding me secure, keeping me positioned against him, so he could continue to explore my mouth and rub all my sensitive spots and his.
He tumbled us back onto the bed, me on top, keeping us clamped firmly together. I lifted my upper body, my weight supported by my hands against the bed on either side of him. He released my lips but kept his arms around me, his hands fastened securely in my hair and around my middle. While I stared into his eyes, he slid his hand from my waist and down my back and thighs.
The gleam in the blue forever of his eyes changed, flared into that look, the look men get when they have no intention of going back, when releasing you will come only after they finish with you … or at death. It had been years since I'd seen that look and even longer since it had flared from me. I didn't want this, and I couldn't live without it. This was the point of no return—on one side sanity, autonomy, and on the other … paradise.
An insistent knock broke the spell. I glanced over my shoulder at the door, as though I wasn't quite sure what it was.
Gavin's response was more colorful and succinct. "Fuck!"

